not good day!

why is my nosebleed accompanied with hacking up bits of blood?
why do i feel feverish?
why do i have no energy whatsoever?
why do i feel so f-in down?
why am i missing all of my appointments?
why is my employer giving me a hard time?
why are there ants everywhere????

i am having a not good day! :(
i miss my gramma and her home cookin.
could it be... homesickness??
sigh.